…has been fucked up.

i tried my best to act happy around everyone, was fucking hard, first lesson got extremly triggered, just wanted to, needed too, held back though, got to lunch time and i was fed of of hiding it anymore, got out my blade and tried to find somewhere, then my mate steph stol it…

Self Harm Survey

elf Harm Survey

•Age?
16

•Sex?
Female.

•Label yourself (prep, goth, druggie, weirdo, etc.)

one of a kind. lol.

•How long have you been cutting?
Since I was 11

•Favorite tool?
Whatever is sharp enough. I prefer razor blades or glass.

•Where (place) do you cut (school, home, etc.)?
home, my best friends house and school, when ever i need to really

•Do you have to hide your whole arm(s) (wrists, forearms, & upper arms, etc.)?
upper arms, uppers legs, sides.

•Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time?
mostley, shorts have to be a certain length and always sleves, not always long sleeves though

•Do you cut on your stomach, or chest?
yeah occasionally

•Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars?
yep.

•What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut?
hollie scratched me

•Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting?
Nope.

•Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have?
i’d say atleast 100

•Do you have (diagnosed) depression, and/or bipolar/bpd?
no.

•Who knows you cut?
best friends and boyfriend and exs

•Have you ever been caught cutting?
I’ve cut with my best friend before. it made us happy.

•Have your parents ever confronted you about a bloody sleeve, or towel?
school told her i cut once, massive family argument about it, hence why im more careful about hiding it now.

•Did you have a good childhood?
i guess :/

•Why do you cut?
the physical pain blocks out the mental pain

•Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor?
yep.

•Do you want to stop cutting (but can’t because of addiction)?
ish, but not for me, i want to stop because my boyfriend wants me to, it upsets him and i end up feeling me sad for him afterwards, i wish i was a better person,for him.

•Do you like cutting?
It’s love/hate.

•How many times have you tried to commit suicide?
2.

•What are your views on cutting, and other self-injury?
dont start.

•Do you like watching movies with self-injury?
no.

•Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury?
When I want a trigger.

•Do you sometimes envy other people (non-self-injurers)?
yeah, sometimes, they can no scars and im all like :’(

•Have you ever taken pictures of your cuts/scars?
Yeah.

•Do you want to die?
sometimes

•Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury?
yeah.

•What do you like to listen to while cutting/depression/etc.
nothing.

•Have you ever needed stitches from cutting?
Nope. well, do the paper ones school nurses give you count?

•Do you dream about cutting?
most of the time